Just one drip

immortal_sin @ 2004-04-22T19:57:00

2004-04-22T23:49:48Z

I didn't feel like makin' a link or anythin' My new journal is www.livejournal.com/users/Represent_Sacto H o l l a

KBJT

2004-04-20T19:32:39Z

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2004-04-10T19:37:53Z

Friday was a good day...

immortal_sin @ 2004-04-07T20:39:00

2004-04-08T00:34:30Z

...eh

2004-04-01T19:58:44Z

I'm stopping the friends only thing...who ever wants to read, can.

It's funny how the people I'd thought wouldn't commented did, and the people I thought would comment, didn't...Also pretty amusing that the person you used to talk almost every second you saw them all the time...now will barely give you 10 minutes of their time in person...let alone any other time...it hurts.

Another day goes by...

2004-03-29T21:23:14Z

Beginning to adapt to sadness, still crying at least 4 times a day. Coming home to nothing isn't what I really wanted. Getting butterflies in my stomach everytime she walks by is great, but seeing all them being swatted away like flies when she keeps walking isn't. Cross-roads...that's the point I've reached in my life, I'm torn...so torn. It still feels like a bad dream, the worst dream as a matter of fact. I saw her laugh today...I saw her smile today, I'm sure you all saw me smile too, don't think anything of it, it wasn't real. I've lost all feeling in my heart, with the exception of pain, which is still very very real. I tell myself, and her, that I won't call anymore, but I find myself pressing 3 on my phone, which is speed-dial for her cell. I called yesterday; her sister picked up, I miss her too...even though I didn't really like her parents, I miss them too, I love them all. I tell myself again, "Get over it, JT." But my mind and heart both agree not to, they still put things together to spell her name, or a date. The number 6 even reminds me of her because divided by 2 is 3 which is part of 3/11. Basketball and skating remind me of her because she used to be my inspiration, with her hands always on my back, pushing me forward, even when I wasn't falling back. "You'll be pro one day JT, I love you.", "You could be a basketball player if you wanted, I love you.",...she told me today that we fought too much, that was probably the main reason we broke up. But the happiness outweighed all the pain. I know we fought alot...if I knew it was this serious, I would've done something. I guess it's really my fault...I'll take the blame without a fight though. I'll gladly take the harder road for her. Sorry if this is skipping around, I'm just remembering and thinking new things all at once and putting them down. She still has my pen, she still uses it...if I wrote down everything that reminds me of her, you'd all think I was crazy...I want to die, I might as well be dead, the only reason I'm not is because in my heart, there's always hope that she'll come back and lift me up, and I'll lift her up...

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2004-03-28T16:45:59Z

I'm not okay anymore. I can't do anything, nothing makes me truly happy. Sure I go out with my friends, and I may laugh or smile, but they're not real. It's just covering up all the pain and sorrow that I feel. Everytime I get in the shower I cry because it still feels like I'm getting ready for her to come over. I feel so alone without saying goodnight to her, knowing when I wake up, she's on my mind, but I'm not on hers. To know that we had something so precious, and for it to be taken...it's unbearable. I've said this alot, to a few people, but it's so true, I didn't find her, I was born with her, everytime when you're little and you think you saw something outside your window, heard a whisper in the dark, that was your someone. And that person for me was Kristin. I'm going to miss getting butterflies before I go to her house, even though I've been going there for more than a year. I'm gonna' miss having a forever cushion for me to fall on. Most of all, I'm gonna' miss seeing the happiness in her eyes that I can only bring out...the happiness that tells me everything is going to be okay...

You all know what goes here.

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2004-03-25T21:31:27Z

3/11/03 - 3/24/04

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2004-02-18T21:10:59Z

Whodis only from now on...comment to be added.

Holla'

2004-02-18T20:39:36Z

Yo' yo', did my detention today...finally. Haha, but I have a Sat. schoo' this weekend anyways. My brother picked me up from Det. at like 2, then we went to BK//I payed//Then he dropped me off and went to work. Just sat down on the comp., waitin' for Kristin to get home so she can come over...not so bad a day, so far. I'm out whodis.

H o l l a

(I love my Kristin.)

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2004-02-16T23:50:57Z

I miss Kristin, she's been in Tampa for Dazzlers since 6 this mornin', I havn't talked to her at all, and after I //She just called...2 hours until she's home...// left we didn't talk much 'cause of Allstar and she was out for dinner. Hopefully she'll be happy to talk to me when she gets home. But last night it was chaotic before I went to Alamo's, but once I got there, it was phat. We played b-ball for a few hours, then came in and watched the Allstar game with Mo's little brother. Carly made Raveoli's. Then me, Mo's little brother, Mo', and Kass played Melee for halftime. Watched the rest of Allstar, the West won, whoop, then played Melee 'til about 3 in the mornin'. Since I left Mo's, it's been pretty gay day, me and my mom got in a fight, we havn't really been cool since I moved in with my G-ma, but whatever, I'm used to it by now, it's my life. But I'm gonna' go pass the time until Kristin calls...holla' back.

(I love Kristin...I miss you baby.)

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2004-02-14T23:43:22Z

What a beautiful day, with a beautiful girl. I love you so much Kristin, Happy Valentines day baby.

NBA Allstar tonight, 8 o'clock, watch it. Pega reppin' Sacto, holla'.

I love you Kristin, I love you, I love you, I LOVE YOU

Happy Valentines Day

2004-02-14T17:18:20Z

Hope everyone had a good time at Robie's last night. But I spent my night at home, doin' lots of nothin'; you all missed out. Hah, but anyways, today I'm goin' over to Kristin's, ~~only for an hour and a half~~ to see her for a little bit on Valentine's day, then I'm goin' over again on Sunday ~~only for a few hours~~.

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Just got done playin' b-ball...at like 10:30 in the mornin', it was coo', alone, but cool. Now I'm fixin' to get in the shower and everything. Happy Valentines day Kristin, I love you. (Happy Valentines to the rest of you too.)

(I love my Valentine...Kristin)

Sacto won last night

2004-02-11T20:11:07Z

What up? Just got out of the shower, Mo' Ian and Sean dropped by later for Mo's board, I gave them a quick switch-show, then they rolled out. Kristin's comin' over in a little bit, it's our 11 months today, everyone should be happy.

I love you Kristin. Happy 11 months.

What up gangsta?

2004-02-10T23:06:30Z

Damn, it' been a long time. Just changed a few things. Anyways. Guess some people would like an update? I guess it's been goin' really cool, skatin' is comin' along. Got a couple new whodi's, still hangin' with the old. Me and Krisin are doing great, it's been awesome with her, a few problems with her parents and everything, but that's in the past. But I'll update more and longer, later...maybe. I'm out.
Holla'.

(I love Kristin...11 months tomorrow)

Gay

2003-12-20T22:35:40Z

I just saw a HIM commercial, I'm so sad...but it had to begin sometime.

(I love Kristin...forever.)

Phone

2003-12-04T01:42:21Z

So many b-ball games on today, it's crazy. More cash-flow for a new board. On the phone with Kristin.

(I love Kristin...always.)

Holla'

2003-12-02T23:19:36Z

Anyone want to know what's up? Today was pretty cool, this mornin' was great...heh. But I'm in need of cash-flow for a board so bad, I'm goin' crazy. Anyways, as of right now I'm...watching SportsCenter, studyin' (It's whack) listenin' to music, and dealin' with a headache, so I'm gonna' go finish all of those then settle down for some good ole' b-ball. Holla'.

(I love Kristin...couldn't live a day without her.)

Yo'

2003-11-29T15:45:34Z

Damn, more of you commented on Thanksgivin' then ever, what's up with that? Haha. Anyways, past few days have been alright, Thursday (Thanksgivin') was alright, hung out with the cousin's for a while, watched some comedy with the family, ate, watched the game. Didn't really do anythin' else, called Kristin that mornin', told her and her family Happy Thanksgivin'. Friday mornin' came along, woke up at 5 to go shoppin' with my mom on "Black Thursday", hah, Wal-Mart was crazy, and we were in line in Toys-r-Us for 2 and a half hours, in line But it was cool, came home, went over to Kristin's, gave her mom her birthday present, hung out with Kerri, Kristin</b> and Shannon; put the tree up and everything. Then Shannon left, me and Kristin's cousin put up lights on the house, I almost died. Then me and her hung out for the rest of the night, I left. Came home, watched the Kings game, went to bed. Woke up, talked to Kristin, and now I'm watchin' Sat. Mornin' Cartoons, don't hate. I'm out though, holla'.

(I love Kristin...she's my world...)

Turkey Day

2003-11-27T13:37:22Z

Happy Thanksgivin' ya'll.

(I love Kristin...forever.)

Yo', Kings.

2003-11-18T20:07:14Z

Took a few periods off today, went to Olive Garden, and then got a Kings at from the mall.

Aggiornero piu successivamente,
Io amo Kristin.

Update, everyone hates me.

2003-11-12T21:49:18Z

omg itss me (4:34:53 PM): everyone hates you now. i just want you to kno
omg itss me: wow. look im JT i think im soo damn good at skateboarding.! look i did a kickflip. WAIT GUYS NOT ALL OF YOU LOOKED!! wow i also have a bandana in my back pocket. cool- huh!? im a bitch to everyoine, and no one other than what kristin jt and robie like me?

Everyone hates me, I got the feeilng that a few people did now, but everyone?

(I love Kristin...forever.)

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2003-11-10T02:23:18Z

Just got home from spending the day with Kristin, each moment that goes by in the day, I love her more, I long to be with her even more, and each minute we're together is amazing, a minute can go as slow as an hour, and a hour as fast as a minute. She's incredible...there isn't one thing about her that doesn't entice me, make me want to wrap her up even more, keep her to myself, and show her to the world at the same time. All the little things she does make everything perfect, reallylittle things, that I keep to myself, and treasure about her, things I think about when I'm awake, and she's asleep next to me. Things that I can just think of in the middle of the day, or in the worst situation, and smile; a true smile, bright, full of emotion. Instead of the ones I give people; fake, emotionless, dull. She's the only one that can truely make me smile...she's just...ideal. Everything about her is beautiful to me...I can't explain all the things that I really feel about her, this emotion is undescribable, yet I could talk about it for hours...it's just me, and her, and us...2, yet 1, at the same time. She's my forever, and I'm hers...

-I love you Kristin...I love you-

Been a while

2003-11-07T02:08:35Z

It's never over, my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
It's never over, all my riches for her smiles when I slept so soft against her...
It's never over, all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
It's never over, she is the tear that hangs inside my soul forever

Well, I'm not going to explain last Thursday, but you already know it was the worst day in my life. Me and Kristin had the biggest fight, and yeah, but we worked everything out, and it got so much better, Friday was so perfect, everything. We spent a few hours together after school, then she went to Dazzler's, then came out, and talked to me some more, then went back in, then I went and sat down with Rob, then she mouthed she loved me from the dance room, then walked over, and said she loved me, then went back...and I got kisses. Then I went to the game and barely took my eyes off of her, she called me later on that night and we talked for a while But since then, things have been great.

don't want no one else's kisses
I'll never hunger for another's touch
And there'll be no one else this heart will ever love
You can be sure I am your forever
'Cause you are my world baby,

Went to Metro the other day with Alan, Timmy, Parker, Ian, Kiffy, Gabe, Ronnie, Danny, and Ian, it was ill. School has been gay, I'm tired of going now, I'm tired of sitting in class. Skatin' is gettin' better, it's awesome, soon I'll be gettin' sponsered. Pickin' up a new pair of Lakai's this weekend, and today I went to the parade, watched Kristin, saw some of the niggas, then came home. Tomorrow is the Home-Coming game, I'm going, everyone should. Then skatin' or goin' to FBA or whatever on Sat. Oh shiiiit, the Kings are 3-0, whoop whoop. This is a pretty big update for me, I feel like I'm rambling on and jumping topics, so I'm gonna' go watch some B-ball then go out to eat, then leave messages on Kristin's phone. I'll catch you later. Holla

(I love Kristin...my forever...my world...my everything.)

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2003-11-05T21:01:11Z

Last Thursday was the worst day of my life...just to let all of you know.

Everything is perfect now though...

I love Kristin...she's my forever.